It has been such a crummy day. I was hoping for a fun weekend and that is not at all what I have gotten. I have had severe allergies for the past two days. After having a horrible outcome with our conciliator meeting for custody, I was hoping for a much better weekend and instead I get sick. But I guess I should kind of have expected it, since all the stress thats been building up finally just let loose Thursday and I had a break down. I have felt so drained and fatigued, no wonder my body is in shut down mode and I'm feeling terrible.. I just want to get through all this. I want to enjoy the rest of my weekend. I want to begin to enjoy my life again. I want to be happy. I don't want this to constantly be a dark cloud over my head. I don't want to constantly be thinking about the last five years of my relationship. I don't want to be thinking about them together, period. I'm so mad that he's already gotten a new girlfriend into his life.... so mad about how quick he was to replace me. I just need this to get better. I don't know how much more of this I can take.
It has been such a crummy day. I was hoping for a fun weekend and… - colors of change.
04 May 2013 @ 06:49 pm